Set your clocks

I want to talk a bit about a running joke i have that you can set your clocks to when my morning crisis ends. At least 5/7 days of the week my crisis is over by noon, give or take one hour. Today it ended at 1:00pm exactly, and i’m going to talk a bit about that and why it’s so spectacular that I can count on suffering like that ending so consistently.

I woke up at 4 am from a vivid sexual nightmare that went on the entire time i was sleeping. I still felt the pain in my genitals from being cut up in my dream when i woke up. Then i threw up. Then i took my meds. then i threw up. Then i took my meds. Then i threw up. This went on every 20-40 minutes for 9 hours. If i wasn’t saved by my clockwork feeling better by time time i would have had to go to urgent care or the emergency room.

I’m not kidding, not even my medicine that blocks acid from being produced was stopping me from throwing up, it was so bad, I couldn’t get my meds in my system, i had to stop taking a med that im running low on because i took the entirety of today’s and tomorrow’s dose by 8am. And my doctor wonders why i run out early.

My doctor seriously wonders why I run out early, when i throw up every godsdamned morning, i’m so sick from intestinal distress building acid in my stomach every godsdamned morning, and i can’t just go without my meds until i stop throwing up because it happens for hours and i can’t predict if ill be sick once or 12 times.

Im finally feeling better and finally have my meds in my system after a 9 hour nightmare. Maybe i’ll touch grass.