Wolf Moon Feast

We’re celebrating the Wolf Moon tonight at my house, which means we are having a Wolf Moon feast! Now, the full moon happens every month, but the Wolf Moon only happens once a year. Fortunately for me I get Food Stamps around this time of month, and I’m preparing a special dinner: BBQ carnitas on Hawaiian buns with grated parmesan cheese, and for a side exotic fruit salad made with cotton candy grapes, boiled opal apples, raspberries, dragonfruit, and papaya. I put half my apples in the pulled pork pot along with tomato sauce and seasoning.

I looked to my ancestors for guidance when to stop adding seasoning. Specifically my maternal grandmother I have a version of in my head, who lives in her own house in my headspace; an area that i cannot access, nor can I force her to use the body from that location. I can, however, call upon her for guidance on cooking. She’ll say “That’s enough, child.” partly because that’s the way we were taught to ask our ancestors for assistance, but I don’t think the person teaching us that meme had an actual spirit coming to them, or maybe they do.

All of this cost me $100 to serve 6 people. I get $250 on Food Stamps a month, and I spent another $50 on coffee and seaweed. If that seems like I’m not leaving enough for food for the month, I also get $400 in Walmart food a month that I split between my roommate (vs. Food Stamps which is largely for myself food) she eats more food than me, so between the both of us we get by, and can eat healthy getting by. The most expensive part of dinner tonight was definitely the exotic fruit salad. Can you really put a price on your health and preventing medical bills? I can say for certain Food Stamps by itself isn’t enough to eat healthy. My roommate has someone holding onto her Food Stamp card and if it wasn’t for that we could probably eat like tonight more often. Food is getting expensive, and eating healthy is a luxury I have to afford somehow.

I truly love cooking, though I haven’t been able to do it much with my nerve damage, plus not much access to cooking tools nor places to cook. I have to order food and immediately make it because the lack of boundaries with the community refrigerator. I made a salad yesterday that I grew myself and some girl takes a portion and throws the rest out! I’ve been trying to treat the people I live with like family. I’ve been working on the couch (partly because it’s the only spot I can get ethernet on my phone) and I’ve been socializing this moon. What’s really helping me is my new PTSD medicine which helps the physical side effects of PTSD. I have more energy and I’m in less pain.

If you want to contribute to getting Thai iced tea boba you can donate here: https://ko-fi.com/mothtasia – I’m also sponsored by Puzzles and Survival for the next 6 day campaign. If you download the game using my link and get to base level 5 i’ll get paid enough to help make my boba, without you having to pay a penny. https://strms.net/puzzles_mothtasiasynergism – it took me about 3 hours including distractions to get to that part of the game, but more so than helping me, this is just a fun game I thoroughly am enjoying and I’ll probably continue to play after my campaign is over.